To my own surprise, I have managed to somehow expound “why knowledge doesn’t matter” into three installments. Really, this has turned out to be a revelation for me – I have been surfacing so many insights that I have internalized over the years. It feels very meaningful to share this with you, even though there are some dimensions that are not fully shareable.
Where I left off, in “Pt. II”, was revealing that the nature of truth is unbound and therefore uncapturable – I explained it’s literal expression as “not anything which a human being can ever think, imagine, or express because all of those options fall short of the immensity that life is (which is unlimited/unbound)”. In case it’s still confusing to know what I mean when I say, “truth” I’ll clarify that here: what I failed to explicitly say is that “Truth” is the same as existence. I’ll say that again in case you missed it: I understand truth as reality as it is (or existence). The reason I call “truth” the same as reality is because reality as it actually is, is the only “true” thing in existence… all else is nonsense. NOW BEFORE THIS WHOLE THING FALLS APART (and I start sounding like an Indian mystic) –> I’ll need you to listen VERY closely: traditionally, in yoga and for those on the path, it had been said that “all is maya”, “all is an illusion”. This, as you might expect, is an oversimplification. After my personal experience of seeing the “truth”, I can tell you that “All is NOT maya”, or illusion – in fact, the opposite is true. Sure, there is only one true reality and all else is nonsense, yes, HOWEVER, all of that “nonsense” is still real. Who we think we are, what we think we know, and everything else we may or may not be certain of, is not existentially true but it is certainly real. Our self-image, our desires, all of our experiences are real; just because it’s “nonsense” does not make it separate from existence. It’s all a part of existence! It’s all a part of our daily lives! To say that none of it is real would be to go against what makes us human. And that, is the truth.
How do I know this? From where do I have authority to speak on “what is truth?”.
Around seven years ago, between 2011 and 2012, I was forced into a super-conscious state without my permission while completely sober. This state is traditionally known as “Samadhi”. In Samadhi, an individual perceives* reality as it actually is; I saw the entire existence and was both all things within and without, all things above and below, and I became the space in between the lines: true nothingness. I will note just a moment here that seeing the truth for a few minutes does not make you a realized being/enlightened. I am not a fully realized being, maybe at best I am a realized seeker. On a softer note, seeing reality as it actually is does not require you to renounce your faith, or go meditate in the mountains, (although at first I certainly felt like it did need to do that). The truth is compatible with all ways of life, because it is life.
I think a solid metaphor for Samadhi is like going to heaven to visit Christ to be in all of his awesome love and splendor and then coming back to Earth to realize that the goal is not to visit Christ but to become Christ. I wish Samadhi on everyone that is able to handle it and not have a psychotic break. The only thing that kept me from sane really was my intellectual realization that nothing can be known, existentially. And without this “intellectual realization”, I would have went running the other way, maybe into insanity.
As I have hinted in the previous installments of “Why Knowledge Doesn’t Matter”, intellectual realization is the realization that the fundamentals of life cannot be understood by your thought process. To be intellectually realized is to see for yourself that you are chasing down the infinite with your finite mind. It is a hopeless process. It is exactly this internal realization that caused my Samadhi. Because although I had given up on knowing what the truth is intellectually, I still longed for it. I longed for it with unreasonable intensity, way past the point of an existential crisis for meaning. As a result of this, I stopped pursuing knowledge — literally I completely exhausted the path of Gnana. I saw that nothing could be known all the way to my core.
This is why I have titled this series of papers, “Why Knowledge Doesn’t Matter” because I want people to see that there is more to life than their intellect. There are so many dimensions to life far beyond the intellect! dimensions that operate on a whole different level of logic and reasoning. It’s one thing to acknowledge this and and whole other thing to experience it. GO! GO! And explore other dimensions of human consciousness! This is why I teach kriya yoga! because it is literally the lightning path to seeing and experiencing other dimensions of existence holistically. No drugs, not special or impossible yoga postures, just breath work. If that is something you would be interested in, then please go to my website OAMmeditation.com and sign up to be on the email list where you will be sent instructions on how to learn this 8 minute practice.
Guys, it was a blessing to share all of this with you. Thank you SO SO so much for listening! It was awesome to get to finally share this with the world. It’s been a long time coming.
*the difference between life and death is your ability to see — it’s hard to say it any more concise that that*